songbird

Moving through my fears of judgement has been so scary but so much fun! I’ve been deciding to do things that purposely set me up for rejection and I’ve experienced such liberation after realizing WHO THE FUCK CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME!!!!!!!

I chose to say whatever weird thing pops up in my head that I find funny or desire to say. I went to the farmers market, and at first, the fear was too much to move through and I was talking normally to people with a mask. but… 🙂 I worked up the courage when a man was showing me the freeze dried fruit for sale, as he was explaining the options I said “oh yeah I was freeze dried as a child”… He laughed so hard and so did the guy next to us! I had no idea how he would react and we had so much fun talking after that. I felt so energized and went to buy strawberries at another group. I was talking normally with the guy and near the end when he asked me a question I started talking in gibberish. He responded in Spanish and I said something random again, he said “am I trippin? what the hell are you saying?” I burst into laughter and we also ended up talking for a while.

I notice after this and a few interactions with others, I felt so much excitement and joy to just be myself and to be seen as myself. I desire to embody this part of me more and get to the point where I’m not afraid to say what I want!